Oh so tired...

It's been a while. Work has been hard, waking up at 6am each day has been harder and old age is simply creeping up on me. I have been wanting to post a new entry to catch up on everything, my dad's fabulous party, life in general, but each night, I get home and it takes every last bit of energy to shower before I crawl into bed. Each weekend is like a lifeline, a semblance of sanity for me and I balk at having to do anything more than sleep and spend time with the family and the boyfriend. I haven't levelled HO in 2 months, updated my FB account properly and the last thing I heard, my laptop was threatening to divorce me.

Guilt has induced this entry though. That's the problem with starting a blog; it becomes a lifetime commitment.

In a nutshell, this is what went on for the past month. My dad's party was fantastic. My brother, his girlfriend and I spent the whole afternoon blowing balloons and stringing streamers. Everything went without a hitch, the caterers were on time, everyone loved the food, the 3kg sugee cake with icing was ooh-ed and aah-ed over and my dad was one happy man. The boyfriend was off to Krabi but the evening was bearable because my lovely ninjas were all there to help with the bar. And it was really good to have the whole family together.

Work started the following Monday and it was and still is a bit of a culture shock. Back in EG, we were loud and noisy and it was one big happy family. Here people are quieter, cliques come in all shapes and sizes and I still don't know everyone's name. I'm still at the nodding-in-the-corridor/toilet/photocopier stage and I've only chatted/lunched with two other girls who are almost as new as me and probably just as lost. If I had to sum it up, I pretty much have no mates. Still, Zak says that that's just the way it is and thank goodness we have each other. I guess so.

To be fair, I wasn't formally introduced to everyone and the rest of the team I'm in have been away for work so there hasn't been any opportunity for bonding. Hopefully things get better progressively. I do appreciate the quiet of the office though as I have been more productive in the past month than in my 4 years in EG. Less chatting and playing means that I work steadily from 9am - 6.30pm, with an hour off for lunch. So the boyfriend and I are finally seeing more sunsets on the way home. Hooray for that!

It's hard for me coming into such an environment but I guess everyone has to grow up sometime and all my mates have been telling me horror stories about their first month so I think I'm a lot luckier that I'm working with someone I already know and am used to. It really isn't as bad as I am making it to seem. I'm sure no one hates me or anything but everyone's just busy doing their own thing to notice and I'm just being a baby about this cos if they start giving out Friendly Staff awards, I'm not going to get one either, for the lack of trying.

Anyway work is piling up, so I'm getting too busy to give this situation much thought. November is going to be hell with 4 events almost back-to-back. I just got back from Beijing where I almost froze my butt off in 11 degrees C fall weather (WTF??!) and I'm already worrying about squeezing in another trip before the end of Oct. But I"m also developing an employee mentality that weekends are mine, mine, mine and I sure ain't gonna go back to the office over this holiday weekend to put in some extra time. Still, I have this little whinging voice in my head warning me about my TO DO List come 9am on Tuesday. It's a bad habit from my years in EG.

Some say I've traded up. I say, same shit, different place.

Still, I'm not scoffing at the money. And God will work everything out for me.

Location: The boyfriend's place
Current Condition: Sleepy
Music: Highway noise